The world is full of hate,
Beautiful people with polluted souls,
Have you looked at your insides as of late,
The world revolves around you,
You live for pleasure,
Partaking in your sins until you spew,
Why do you poison your mind body and spirit,
Life is too short,
Yet your killing yourself and no one will hear it,
Everyday your comrades fall,
Victims of the darkness,
But in the end you dont care at all,
Loving many,
Living fast,
While spending every penny,
Love is what you do in a bed,
Not something from the heart,
So you love until your dead,
Who cares who you devastate,
You have to feel good right,
So play the
My mind is burning with disbelief,
my heart is aching with bitter grief,
my soul is bleeding with all my strength,
why did you have to go,
why did you have to go to this length,
my spirit is battered,
my mind is worn,
my heart is tattered,
I just cant morn,
love always eludes me,
no matter how far I reach,
love always slips from me,
like sand on an endless beach,
I have tried to be dark and cold,
but my loving heart always shines through,
I have tried to be brash and bold,
but then I met you,
now my mind is burning with disbelief,
my heart is aching with bitter grief,
my soul is bleeding with all my strength
Hey everyone, my name is Jayson. I'm a father of one who was born and raised in Illinois but now lives in NC. I have a long history of depression and attempted suicide. Over the last 6 months my suicidal thoughts and urges have grown exponentially worse. That being said, when I'm depressed and can't stop thinking about suicide I try to express myself through art and wanted to share my works with you.
Favourite Visual Artist
My dA friends!!!
Favourite Movies
The Chronicles of Narnia: The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
Thousand Foot Krutch, Pillar, Sonic Flood, Jars of Clay
Favourite Writers
Carl Sandburg, C.S. Lewis
Favourite Games
Mario, Zelda, Sonc, Final Fantasy, The Sims, Harvest Moon
Favourite Gaming Platform
Wii, Nintendo DS, Playstation 2
Tools of the Trade
Pen/Pencil & Paper, PC
Other Interests
Church, video games, writing, graphic design, web design
Wow! It looks like its been almost a decade since I have really been active on DA. Its crazy how time flies. It is also crazy how much I have changed. I don't know if any of my old friends are even still here but if if you are, and you happen to read this I hope you will get in touch with me. I look forward to submitting some new works of art, making some new friends, and hopefully getting reacquainted with some old ones.
Hey guys....just wanted to let you all know that I havent forgotten ANY of you. I miss you all so terribly that I cant stand it sometimes!!! I still dont have internet at my house but I do have it on my phone along with the unlimited night and weekend calling and unlimited text messaging....so PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE hit me up!!! (You guys can see my email...if you want my number email me!) Anyway...life has been a roller coaster. I have gone through so much crap since December that it just isnt funny and now just when things start to get better I find out that little baby Lowlow needs to have sergery and that I have to leave the few friends I m